San Francisco 49ers’ Trent Williams’ wife speaks out about tough loss.

Sondra Williams, the NFL pro offensive tackle’s wife, shared on Instagram on Sunday, December 1st that their son, Trenton O’Brien Williams Jr., was stillborn on Sunday, November 24th. She shared a video of her baby’s heartbeat and sonogram images, as well as clips and photos from Sondra’s pregnancy, on her Instagram. Sondra took a moment to honor her son in a lengthy caption, calling him her “forever angel.”

“💔It was extremely difficult to process the saddest hello and goodbye I’ve ever had to endure,” she wrote. “Last Sunday evening, 11/24/24, I greeted your lifeless 4 pound 8 ounce 18.5 inch long little body at 11:38 p.m. At just 35 weeks, her impressive and rapid arrival didn’t even leave mom time to get an epidural. I am so grateful that I had your aunt Katina (who also cut your umbilical cord) and sister Hannah by my side 🙏🏾.

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She went on to say that Trenton’s twin had been lost earlier in the pregnancy and that Trenton had been diagnosed with trisomy 13, a rare genetic disorder that occurs when an extra copy of chromosome 13 attaches to a pair of chromosomes and can be life-threatening can, according to the Cleveland Clinic.

“🙏🏾As much as I tried to prepare for our meeting, I was not prepared and never would be. After losing your twin early in pregnancy, I prayed and hoped that your diagnosis of Trisomy 13 wasn’t true and “That wouldn’t be the fate of my long-awaited beautiful son-Shine.☀️,” Sondra said.

“My firstborn and only son, I always wanted you, but God wanted and needed you more. Knowing that you are with your great aunt Vivian in heaven and will always be our guardian angel 👼🏽 gives me great comfort in the world in the midst of all this grief.

“My heart is heavy. Being home without you in my arms has been quite an adjustment. Knowing that I will never be able to see you grow older with your sisters filled my eyes with tears.😭,” she said.

Sondra went on to write that she is heartbroken and has a hard time finding the words to describe how it feels to be home without her son, but the thought of Trenton watching over her comforts her.

“👼🏽Thank God for allowing us to bond for 35 weeks and for giving birth to you so I could hold you in my arms. I am at peace and know that you will never have to suffer,” she said.

“Although I will never hear your soft coos and cries or see those beautiful little eyes staring up at me, I am grateful to God for the time I spent with you. 💗💙Madison loved listening to your heartbeat and watching the waves of movement in my stomach. Trenton O’Brien Williams Jr., my sweet baby boy, we love you, our forever angel!💙👼🏽